Have you ever wondered who or what you are as a person? Or have you ever considered how other people see you? Some would say that neither of these matter until you fully regard, acknowledge and accept your inner spiritual self. For it is only when you do this, that you can understand what other people may see, and have the insight and ability to adjust yourself accordingly.
Where does one start with a philosophy on self? You may say, start at the beginning, but where is that? Birth, childhood, the very first high school class or employment?
In my case I am compelled to say that it was at the commencement of my spiritual awakening. The moment that I became aware that I was sensitive to the vibrations around me and accepted them in a responsible and reasoned manner. This excludes early childhood then to some degree. For in childhood, yes, I knew I was sensitive, but I had no conditioning, no control. I was as influenced by my awareness of dark forces as I was by light, and as equally frightened by both at a young age.
So my moment of true ‘awakening’ then was probably around the age of fourteen or fifteen. Whilst struggling with the complications of being a teenager, I was accutely aware that the forces around me were directly related to my existence as a physical human being. In some way, as a consequence of my thoughts, words and deeds; darkness and light were often reflected, ‘as a mirror’, particular to my mood at any given time. Looking back, I suppose this was a dangerous time for a sensitive, as, put in the same terms as the film ‘Star Wars’, I could so easily have been ‘seduced by the Dark Side’. So what stopped me being so? Well, I think it is because that, at the same time, I was developing a mental perspective on life and its meaning, which allowed me to consider the matter of myself, in context with societal norms and peer expectations. Basically I was entering a phase of ‘growing up’ which meant that I was learning to differentiate (from my spirit within and without) between right and wrong.
Again looking back I can clearly relate to the notion of negative energy perpetuating more negative energy and vice versa. I guess this period of my life can also adequately be summed up as an emerging awareness on my part, of ‘personal responsibility’ to both myself and others.
Along the timeline of Teen to Present Day I have experienced many heart rending situations. I have known disability, trauma, various kinds of abuse, illness and I have also dealt with death at many levels. On reflection however, I can equally as easily recall happiness, joy, elation and love at both a physical and spiritual level.
To me then the philosophy of self, is dictated by the personal journey of the individual through life. The ability of that individual to relate and react to that journey in terms of moulding one’s traits and attributes to a positive end, and allowing such experience and circumstance as may be endured from time to time, to culminate in a full knowledge of ones-self, whilst maintaining life balance, empathy and compassion for others.
In contemplating my own position in life, through meditation, I came to realise that there were others around me who would not be aware of their own place in this context. It is fair to say that this has led to a greater understanding on my part, as regards how I approach such people and interact with them for the better. However, it is also said that, to fully understand another persons position you should wear their shoes. If you consider this philosophy you can do so, but my point is, if you also consider yourself first as if from their perspective, then you can go one step beyond wearing their shoes and actually look through their eyes too!