Your faith is being tested.

But you can still be an example to others.

Whoever you are remember there are others who are much worse off.

So much so they have no home, no food and certainly no computer to be inspired by this post!

Keep the faith!

AlanC

I can see my loved ones around me
In the peripheral vision of my glazed eyes
As I stare straight ahead at nothing.

I would look straight through them anyway
I am too weak…
To even turn my head, to look upon them.

I am transfixed
Seemingly in and out of cognition
Yet always thinking…
How cruel the mind!

My life plays back
In that mind’s eye
How I wish the relentless thoughts could stop

I consider myself a Driver
Of a vehicle that is now worn out
Pushed to the side of the road.

I will leave it soon to go home
No luggage or possessions will go with me, nor even the clothes I wear.
Only memories and the love in my heart

Home?
What does it mean?
Will it be Alien to me?

My home is with my loved ones here, yet I know I must eventually leave them
Near Death, I realise how cruel ‘life’ is
To them…
And to me.

I despair.
They can never see me in my physical form again
I can never hold, touch or even speak to them?

Better to have lived than not?
I don’t know.
Thinking about it alarms me, brings tears to my eyes!

They dry the tears running down my cheek
But they cannot heal my heart
Slowly breaking from inside out.

How did I get to this?
I know I must go but I don’t want to!
Will it be soon?

I am afraid.
But worse than that…
I am missing my loved ones before I have even left them.

More tears at this thought.
Oh my God it is a vicious cycle!
Still my mind will not rest…
My breathing becomes laboured.

I want to tell them I love them
But I have not the strength to speak
Even to look at them and smile? No.

The strength is ebbing…
I feel it!
Hard now, to even think.

I see the light
Fading it is
My eyes they are closing…

I feel my weight lifted
The tearing of Body and Soul
As I exhale for the last time…

Love and Peace
AlanC x
Sometimes we must see things from the perspective of the other person, in order to know what best to do for them!

Previously I had asked a spirit in trance mediumship, if we could choose not to reincarnate and return to earth? On that occasion the spirit said no we had to reincarnate and return when we were told. I asked then if we could choose the person we returned as, and again the spirit said no.

In meditation then, I challenged this with my Spirit Guides and said where is the free will? as what we were told in trance was apparently a contradiction to free will. The guides said we do not lose free will in terms of freedom of choice as we are given objectives in the spirit world regarding tasks/reincarnation but we must still make a choice as regards how we meet those objectives. In other words whilst our duties of learning and advancement toward enlightenment were obligatory, we all had free will to choose the methods and pathways laid before us. If the same ends could be achieved whilst not in the physical then so be it, but many lessons could only be learnt through experience whilst in the physical form. The guides went on to say that overcoming animal and base tendencies inherent within the human form, was a part of our learning and advancement!

Where does one start with a philosophy on self? You may say, start at the beginning, but where is that? Birth, childhood, the very first high school class or employment?

In my case I am compelled to say that it was at the commencement of my spiritual awakening. The moment that I became aware that I was sensitive to the vibrations around me and accepted them in a responsible and reasoned manner. This excludes early childhood then to some degree. For in childhood, yes, I knew I was sensitive, but I had no conditioning, no control. I was as influenced by my awareness of dark forces as I was by light, and as equally frightened by both at a young age. 

So my moment of true ‘awakening’ then was probably around the age of fourteen or fifteen. Whilst struggling with the complications of being a teenager, I was accutely aware that the forces around me were directly related to my existence as a physical human being. In some way, as a consequence of my thoughts, words and deeds; darkness and light were often reflected, ‘as a mirror’, particular to my mood at any given time. Looking back, I suppose this was a dangerous time for a sensitive, as, put in the same terms as the film ‘Star Wars’, I could so easily have been ‘seduced by the Dark Side’. So what stopped me being so? Well, I think it is because that, at the same time, I was developing a mental perspective on life and its meaning, which allowed me to consider the matter of myself, in context with societal norms and peer expectations. Basically I was entering a phase of ‘growing up’ which meant that I was learning to differentiate (from my spirit within and without) between right and wrong. 

Again looking back I can clearly relate to the notion of negative energy perpetuating more negative energy and vice versa. I guess this period of my life can also adequately be summed up as an emerging awareness on my part, of ‘personal responsibility’ to both myself and others.

So Philosophy! 

Along the timeline of Teen to Present Day I have experienced many heart rending situations. I have known disability, trauma, various kinds of abuse, illness and I have also dealt with death at many levels. On reflection however, I can equally as easily recall happiness, joy, elation and love at both a physical and spiritual level. 

To me then the philosophy of self, is dictated by the personal journey of the individual through life. The ability of that individual to relate and react to that journey in terms of moulding one’s traits and attributes to a positive end, and allowing such  experience and circumstance as may be endured from time to time, to culminate in a full knowledge of ones-self, whilst maintaining life balance, empathy and compassion for others.

In contemplating my own position in life, through meditation, I came to realise that there were others around me who would not be aware of their own place in this context. It is fair to say that this has led to a greater understanding on my part, as regards how I approach such people and interact with them for the better. However, it is also said that, to fully understand another persons position you should wear their shoes. If you consider this philosophy you can do so, but my point is, if you also consider yourself first as if from their perspective, then you can go one step beyond wearing their shoes and actually look through their eyes too!

AlanC 

It would be far easier (and its never too late) to adjust our lifestyle now and follow a different path, than to amend it (or otherwise mend our ways!), when we are facing our exit from the stage of life, possibly leaving behind regrets and only partially fulfilled dreams and aspirations.

Below is a link to an article that I have produced, with some spirit intervention, which is designed to promote thought about the life one could lead, in the context of one’s relationships with others. I don’t demand, suggest or otherwise thrust opinions at the reader. I simply ask that the article be read with an open mind and an open heart.

Peace be with You…
AlanC

We must be alert and watchful
Take care not to slip
A moment is all it takes
Then we are caught in its web

What is this then
The great unseen?
It is the darkness we must be wary of
And I mean not, a physical lack of light

It is ill thought
Unchecked raw emotions
Mistreatment of others
And worse!

Embrace it we must not
Fight it with love and light
Forgive those who would trespass against us
And be led not into temptation

Free will we have yes
But exercise it wisely for the right outcome
If we are what we think
Then be pure of thought toward others.

Amen

With man’s worship of and infatuations with,  his own technological achievements, it is clear that the attention of the individual is distracted from that connection one would have had with nature and spirit, had such technology not been so prevalent!

This displacement however, is not the only reason the world has problems. Even the very design of infrastructure for society i.e. in the form of the creation of large centres of housing, is enough to cause the loss of individual identity. Consider the conscience of the individual when he is interacting within a peer group that is well known (i.e. in a small village), compared to behaviours that may arise without chastisement or personal responsibility outside this environment such as in a town or furthermore a city environment.

The reasons and answers to this problem affecting peace through harmony then are clearly multi- faceted so one may ask, “what are we to do?”

When considering extreme behaviour, one must consider the context within which such behaviour exists. If drawing impetus from the base reasons of society, religion and/or upbringing, then there is hope for mankind if the individual can recognise and address this root cause. What is certain is that the world is changing and more extreme behaviour will follow as the foundations for long term peace are being laid through world events. This is particularly in evidence in the middle east at present and is spreading around the globe as capitalist and western markets come to terms with their problems.

It is the responsibility of every enlightened individual then, to find and address the balance.

To achieve balance one must learn to identify opportunities to dispel or fight the darkness that threatens to envelop this world. To bring love where it is absent, pray for those who are surrounded by darkness and evil, that they may be surrounded by the light and love of eternal spirit and do everything possible to help one’s neighbour to go forward in peace.

Balance also means countering abuse, bullying, discrimination, exploitation, fanaticism and racism, with equal measures that ultimately are put forward in love and peace. Encouraging human kind to recognise that the individual must accept the personal responsibility they have to themselves, each other and ultimately our cosmic divine energy (or God if you prefer).

For every hate preachers ‘negative’ rant, there should be an equal and opposite ‘positive’ message of love, for each ‘evil’ deed an equal and opposite ‘good’ deed, and so on until each is cancelled out and a universal harmony is realised. This will take some generations to complete. The children of our star children will be the instruments of this change. So let us pray that individuals and World Leaders alike, may be given the wisdom and personal integrity to act appropriately now, in order to lay the foundations that are necessary for our future in a new and better world!